no clever title has come to mind yet....i guess because this is more of an update entry.

people are so ridonkulous. (no this is not a ranting blog) but i just had to get that off my chest.

so I'm very excited for what is happening after the next two weeks:
1. end of first year of college...there have been struggles...more than any one person should have to struggle. but, like destiny's child...im a survivahhhh ... ^U^teehee and i came out prosperous.

2. In May, me and mummy and Dresden and going to Columbia for some ballet gala thing and i love the ballet and Natalie Portman's body double from Black Swan is gonna be dancing some Black Swan stuff. This is good for many reasons because it's ballet, i get to dress up which means i get to wear my fancy hat from urban outfitters, and it's BLACK SWAN.

3. beginning of June I'm going with my friend Dresden to Charleston during Spoleto to see an ANDY WARHOL film thingy (I'll post a link)/ getting my nose pierced! LINK: http://tickets.spoletousa.org/eventperformances.asp?evt=200

4. Going to NYC. I love New York so this is just good. We are going to see Wicked...which I am indifferent about...Last time i was there, which was the first time, we went to see Hair and that was cooooooool :)

anyhooo i think that's it for now. i miiiiiiiight possibly get to see Florence and the Machine :D

Dyslexia

Dyslexia...

I'm pretty DANG sure I got it. Yeah, we all know that you read stuff backwards and whatnot from time to time, but i do it all the time. And it's not even that much of a hindrance to me. I just realize my mistake and move along. What IS a hindrance is the fact that i i think it's starting to take over my life. Not in an academic way, but in a social way. I can't freaking go to anything on the day it's supposed to happen because i have switched it around with some other day. (I know what you're thinking: "This chick needs a calender...or outlook...or SOMETHING!") Well I've tried it, and it didn't work. The reason I am writing this now is because in the past 2 days I've managed muck up like every possible time/ day scheduling thing. I actually thought yesterday was the 7th. (I realize that's just plain dumb and not dyslexic) Anyways, I think I am done with my rant about my mental problems.....

er....um...I don't know what to say now.

I'm very hungry.....HAHA! I just looked back at this and the spell check has gone carzy...i mean crazy.

teehee :P

BONO and Dio and everything in between...not really

so, i haven't done this in a while and i feel compelled to update this thing on my life, but i don't even really know so..I'm just going to skip that section.

I'm broke again...I can't even buy lunch, but luckily Christmas is coming and that means I'll be coming into some moneys.
I'm going to start on a sketch of something I'm drawing from my friend very soon, and he had better like it. and it's going to be soon...like withing the next few minutes whenever i get done with this. i might not even paint it though. If it's really good, then i don't want to try to re-create that business. I just realized that this is turning into a to-do list. I also just realized how many things i hate...and i think i add a new thing to the list every day. BONO is one of those things that i increase the hate level everyday, everyone who knows me knows i hate bono, but no one knows why....is it really that much of a mystery? HE IS SO FREAKING SELF RIGHTEOUS! he thinks since he wrote a couple of mediocre songs ( I realize i can't write songs, but still they aren't that great) he can just be everywhere...and he needs to be stopped. So does Ronnie James Dio...he's just awful in general. When i told someone this they said "WHAT?!?! He's a Rainbow in the dark!" BULL! he just thinks he is and has brainwashed some stupid people into thinking he is WHO WANTS TO BE A RAINBOW? I would say that being a rainbow was gay, buuuuut...it is the symbol, so I really don't feel the need to. But yeah, I think that's all for now...

those moments.....

I have recently begun to watch movies alot...I've always watched them but.. I have just watched alot more than usual and I always get really into the movie I'm watching. like i feel like it's me and i dwell on it for days and days. It's not healthy. For example, right now I'm watching Never Been Kissed. It doesnt matter how many times i watch the ending I ALWAYS freak out when the guy doesn't show up right when the clock goes off. Like, I know he's coming but in that split second that he's not there i start like hyperventilating when he doesn't come. It's not just that movie either. It's like every movie. With Moulin Rouge I'm convinced that Satine won't die if I watch the movie enough times....haha. but anyways this was pretty pointless i just felt like sharing this thought that i had..

Mick Jagger

"you can't always get what you want. but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need"


I've always liked that song. like since i was literally four. so it's always meant something to me, but a couple weeks ago i was listening to it in my for the first time in years, and if you know the song you know it's about love. and it really cleared my head about alot of my "love problems"....well i guess you could say lack thereof. anywhooooo ive kinda had my eye on someone but tha tis obviously going nowhere real fast and i was very upset about having to come to terms with that. so, back to the day i was listening to the song. i was very upset this particular day and then i heard these lyrics and a huge wave of calm washed over me and i let it go. it was grand. as i'm readin this im realizing how retarded i sound going on and on about how good it feels to let something go...cuz everyone knows how great that is. but i seriously SERIOUSLY never let anything go! so this was just somewhat of a shout-out to Mr. Jagger....you know in case he stumbles across this one magic day...saying thank you for those words of wisdom.

the nose knows

i have a confession to make.

I have a nose fetish....

u know how like a girl like eyes, or hair, or smile?

all these things are wonderful... in their own special way, but i like noses.

my friends were asking me what, in my opinion, was a good nose. And, i tried explaining it ot them that a good nose isn't necessarily big.....it's just "prominent" or different than a regular nose, but they didn't get it. So i tried to show them one but no one in the room had a good example of a nice nose. so here are some pics of good noses.

no quarters....

"Always the same, playin' your game, Drive me insane, trouble is gonna come to you, One of these days and it won't be long, You'll look for me but baby, I'll be gone. "
-led zeppelin

I am broke.
being broke is not fun, because when your friends want to do something, you have to either:

1. just not go.
2. go and bum $ off your friends (in my case my friends have limited funds as well)
3. find some random change and just pay for your stuff in large amounts of coinage.

I chose 3. the only problem with 3 is your friends get embarrassed when you pay in quaters, and I am now running out of quarters.

by the way......

I'm putting a quote at the beginning of each of these little....."entries" that pertain to my life at the moment. I may or maynot explicate the quote. It really just depends on my mood.

but this is the end of this one.

I don't really know how to end these....