those moments.....

I have recently begun to watch movies alot...I've always watched them but.. I have just watched alot more than usual and I always get really into the movie I'm watching. like i feel like it's me and i dwell on it for days and days. It's not healthy. For example, right now I'm watching Never Been Kissed. It doesnt matter how many times i watch the ending I ALWAYS freak out when the guy doesn't show up right when the clock goes off. Like, I know he's coming but in that split second that he's not there i start like hyperventilating when he doesn't come. It's not just that movie either. It's like every movie. With Moulin Rouge I'm convinced that Satine won't die if I watch the movie enough times....haha. but anyways this was pretty pointless i just felt like sharing this thought that i had..

Mick Jagger

"you can't always get what you want. but if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need"


I've always liked that song. like since i was literally four. so it's always meant something to me, but a couple weeks ago i was listening to it in my for the first time in years, and if you know the song you know it's about love. and it really cleared my head about alot of my "love problems"....well i guess you could say lack thereof. anywhooooo ive kinda had my eye on someone but tha tis obviously going nowhere real fast and i was very upset about having to come to terms with that. so, back to the day i was listening to the song. i was very upset this particular day and then i heard these lyrics and a huge wave of calm washed over me and i let it go. it was grand. as i'm readin this im realizing how retarded i sound going on and on about how good it feels to let something go...cuz everyone knows how great that is. but i seriously SERIOUSLY never let anything go! so this was just somewhat of a shout-out to Mr. Jagger....you know in case he stumbles across this one magic day...saying thank you for those words of wisdom.